My name is Charlyndria but people usually call me Char or Charlie. I'm 21 and I live and the DC area and I'm a college student at Marymount University.
I'm majoring in Fashion Merchandising and Communications. I've always loved fashion. movies, art, and music. I've always wanted to be apart of the Entertainment industry in one way or another. I want to be a jack of all trades: I want to be a stylist, potential fashion designer and working on making my own PR firm in the future. I don't know yet how this will happen but I can't wait for my life after school.
I made this blog just to express myself and write down all the random musing within my crazy mind. I'm not really looking for Tumblr fame but that would be nice.
I really don’t understand what guys like or want anymore and I’m tired of trying to wait or find one that will 100% appreciate me and like me for me.
No one will never understand me, but me.
I can’t sleep and I don’t to sleep. I fear if I sleep now, I might not wake up for my presentation. LOL
I’m really scared now. I had to stay up a couple extra hours because my laptop was acting like a childish A-hole. I literally lost an entire slideshow for my Senior Sem. presentation that is suppose to be at 9:30 am today. On top of that, I’m getting strep throat! Ugh! I really don’t want to go to sleep out of the fear that I might not wake up in time for my class. So I am going to take like an hour nap and wake up so that I can practice my presentation. I’m actually going to have to drink some coffee today. I can’t wait this is all over. I will be doing my praise jesus baptist dance after all of this crap. FML!!!!
Rant:Time Bombs, Atomic Bombs and Cherry Bombs
I don’t know what’s happening to me. Feel like I’m slowly losing myself again. Lately I’ve been very angry and short tempered and I have been letting people get the best of me. My anger is scary and violent and I hate it. I hate feeling like I want to hit someone. I’ve been there hundreds of times and I don’t want to go there again. I’ve been trying to suppress and shield my anger. I’m afraid of hurting someone with my words or my fists. I try not to be that person who walks around with a chip or two on their shoulder.
But lately, my anger has defeated me. I feel horrible because tried to hurt someone emotionally with my temper with my words and actions. This person hasn’t done anything to me and I feel like I took everything out on them in anger and in jealously. I’m really scared for myself. I feel like I have to give myself a day off or get off campus for a couple hours or a day. I need space for myself. I’m glad that I have awesome friends and a great mom to talk to and calm me down. I’ve taken pills and different medicines to keep my anger for getting me in trouble or hurt. Hearing a familiar voice and their great advice is the best medicine and the best therapy for someone like me.
Childish Gambino is my new favorite rapper.
I’m convinced that Black women are stereotyped the most and we have the worst stereotypes.
What other race is seen as ugly, rude, attitudinal, fat, poor, slutty, in-eloquent, AND stupid? It’s annoying how other people including Black folks think this way. I just love proving people worn because I am none of the above.
Naturals: If there was an Apocalypse and there was no power, running water, and all of society has failed how would you style your hair?
I would probably keep mines braided and steal some wigs from a abandoned beauty supply. I’ll just wear the wig over it.
