Probably one of the stupidest things I ever did, and I would love to do it again!

I’m looking through some old FB pictures that a friend of my posted online recently of us and a couple other friends hiking last year. I really miss hiking behind the woods of my school. The trail behind my school leads towards some gorges and the shore line of the Virginia side Potomac River.

Me in 2011 hiking on the trail.

The first time I hiked back there was 3 years ago during my Freshman year. There was a large group of us. Maybe 30+ people hiking. This trail is filled with jagged rocks, fallen trees, holes, large cliffs and gorges. Also a small stream flows through it that empties into the Potomac River. A couple of times some of us fell and tripped. It was dangerous because of the dark and also if you aren’t paying attention.

We hiked during the night and it nearly took us 4 hours to get to the Potomac shoreline. When we reached the shoreline we had took a break for an hour and we ate some snacks. We made our own fire and cooked some s’mores. A couple of us had wrote our names in the boulders and rocks. My feet and legs felt like they were going to fall off after we came back on campus. I really want to do this all again. Next time I will prepare and bring more food, a first aid kit and extra water. 

I can’t sleep and I don’t to sleep. I fear if I sleep now, I might not wake up for my presentation. LOL

I’m really scared now. I had to stay up a couple extra hours because my laptop was acting like a childish A-hole. I literally lost an entire slideshow for my Senior Sem. presentation that is suppose to be at 9:30 am today. On top of that, I’m getting strep throat! Ugh! I really don’t want to go to sleep out of the fear that I might not wake up in time for my class. So I am going to take like an hour nap and wake up so that I can practice my presentation. I’m actually going to have to drink some coffee today. I can’t wait this is all over. I will be doing my praise jesus baptist dance after all of this crap. FML!!!!

I can’t wait until I get to draw this map for my history project. I’ve never been so excited to do an assignment for school..

I really hate icebreakers in class.

FINALLY DONE WITH THIS SEMESTER!!!

Stay focused

The Best of Me

I’m a fucking bitch 

I may be a whore

And I might just be stupid

But your words, thoughts, and perceptions barely make a woman like me flinch

I carry scars on my body that are deeper than your whole existance

You can never walk a mile in my shoes

Walking in them would take you thousand of miles

Living a life like mine, is like dying several times

I will never fall again, I’m like the sun

I always rise above the world

I am the winner and you are the defeated

You will never get the best of me

Girls at Marymount should drink more water, they are looking really dehydrated this semester.

It’s Time For “Plan Let’s Get The Fuck Out of Here!”: How I’m Slowly Planning My Exit Strategy Out of College and Out of DC.

Shit man, where to I begin with this whole messy situation? Things never turn out the way they plan and life generally sucks for most people in this world including myself. To make a long, tragic, and very depressing emo I-want-to-slit-my-wrists story short and simple, my current university*(who’s name will remain anonymous in case my school decides to pull a bitch move and sue me, they would pull a punk move like that on me!) is fucking up my money. Playing with my money is like playing with my emotions. I’m not allowed to register for my classes until I pay for the money I owe.

I have to take a whole semester off because of this crap. I felt in my head “WTF?! I work hard in school, I actually make an effort to go to class, do my work, pay attention, stay up late and sometimes for 24-48 hours straight finishing crap for my classes! Why do I deserve this shit?” C’MON SON!!! Even though there are times at school when I want to punch every asshole in the face, I really actually grew to love my school.

When I first came there as a freshman I hated it so much. I was really depressed because all my high school friends went to other schools in the state like UVA, VCU, Virginia Tech and even some of them had went off to really amazing schools like Harvard, Yale, Columbia, and Duke. I turned down my other chances to go to UVA and VCU, to major in Fashion Merchandising at my current school. I felt very alone and depressed because I knew no one at the school. There were only 3 other people from my graduating class that I knew but not very well that attended my school. I’m usually an outgoing person, but at this period of my life I was very introverted and I was afraid to make new friends.

I joined several clubs around the campus, but one club that I found my place at home was the schools Multicultural Society*(again, I’m changing names so no one can sue me, people are so pressed to sue nowadays lol). I’ve meet some of my closest friends here in the club. I’ve got to know people who were from all over the US and the World. Color, race, religion and ethnicity was never a problem because I love them all no matter what. I’ve never meet people who were more real, unique and all around awesome to be around. I’ve had a lot of fake friends in life who have wronged me, but the people who I call my good friends now are all good to me.

I grew to love school, not just because of the friends I made here, it was because I was happy that I majored in something that I enjoy and that I can see myself being successful at. Even though I say that I hate being in school sometimes, when I’m on break or out of school I feel really unproductive and just unaccomplished.That’s why its so hard for me to stop for one semester. Not to mention again, this is my senior year and I wont be able to walk in May 2012. 

For weeks I’ve been really angry about and I cried a couple of times and I gave up for a while on everything that I wanted to do. It’s been a while that I’ve felt really crushed and defeated like this. I was so miserable, I didn’t even celebrate my own 21st birthday that I was looking forward to. I just spent my own bday just as another normal day. I work up, took a shit, ate, got on the internet and cried. I had no plan for the longest time on how I’m going to get myself out of this situation. 

Finally There Is A Light In The Tunnel In The End *shouts* JESUS!!!! Praise Em’!!!! (Inside joke LOL)

I took a mini-adventure to the Maryland side of my neighborhood and took one of the Montgomery County buses to the Langley Park Shopping Center. I go to this area to get my Henna. The metro has all of these weird ass buss numbers like J19, C2, C3, F34. I’m like WTF kinda of buses are these?! The MoCo (short for Montgomery county for all of you non-DC people who don’t know) buses are named by numbers. So curious ass me, decides in my head, “Let’s Take An Adventure Today, I Ain’t Doing Shit Else.” 

After I buy my henna and pretend that I’m a immigrant who can’t speak English to avoid creepy men, I hopped on one the buses that take you to downtown Silver Spring. The bus passes by the Takoma-Silver Spring branch of Montgomery College. I thought to myself, well why don’t I try to take classes here for a semester? That will keep me busy, out of trouble, and happy! And I will get to meet new people and it’s less than 15 minutes away from my house! I’ve heard many positive things about this college, it’s considered one of the best community colleges in the country. So why the hell not?

What I’m going to do is take maybe 12 credits. I can only transfer two of them over, so I’m taking the last two of my required core classes. The other two will probably be one of these three options: Chinese, Arabic, or some type of Art class( preferably something that allows me to draw and paint at the same time!) I already discussed it with the parental units and they think it’s a wonderful idea. 

Not only am I’m going to this, like the great poet O.J. Da Juiceman said, I’m getting money. I need money. I already have a cool freelance job in which I sell high class Italian fashion(BTW, if you want to buy something from me, just send me a message and we can talk some business). It’s not the most stable because you never know when you are going to make a sell. So I want two other jobs that will allow me to save money to pay off some of my debt, to save for a car, to save for when I move away from DC. 

After, I’m finished the semester, I’m going to go back to my regular school,take a shit load of credits and hopefully be out by Summer 2012 or Fall 2012. I don’t feel like crap anymore that I’m not going to graduate on time and have a formal commencement ceremony. All that matters is that I get out before 2013 so I can still be in the class of 2012. I don’t care for an assembly, I just want my degree so I can finally be free to go out in the adult world. I just need to get this all off my chest and vent finally. It feels much better to know that it’s not the end for me. My life is on to be continued right now. I’m ready to have it back and press the play button. 

It’s amazing how getting away from College makes you lose about 15-20 pounds.