My name is Charlyndria but people usually call me Char or Charlie. I'm 21 and I live and the DC area and I'm a college student at Marymount University.
I'm majoring in Fashion Merchandising and Communications. I've always loved fashion. movies, art, and music. I've always wanted to be apart of the Entertainment industry in one way or another. I want to be a jack of all trades: I want to be a stylist, potential fashion designer and working on making my own PR firm in the future. I don't know yet how this will happen but I can't wait for my life after school.
I made this blog just to express myself and write down all the random musing within my crazy mind. I'm not really looking for Tumblr fame but that would be nice.
My mind is so scattered right now
I had a final this morning and I just finished a 10 page English paper just now. I don’t know whether I should continue working or to take a break. I still have a lot of stuff to do but I’ve been in front of a computer for at least 4 fours straight.
I’m not the right complexion
Nor do I have the correct hair texture, hair length or body type for guys to like me. I ask myself, “What is wrong with me?” “Am I ugly?” “Am I a bitch?” “Am I fat?” I don’t like to use my skin color as an excuse but I feel like that’s the case sometimes. I feel like I am constantly overlooked by guys at my school and around this area. The only guys that I attract are creepers and bums on the street. But when it comes to anyone that I like for myself they always reject me. When they look at me they just quickly dismiss me because they see that I am darker.
The guys that I like or want never like me back. They usually reject me and they would go after the girls that are lighter, thinner, with longer hair or straighter hair.They can never get over the fact that I’m visibly Black. r I feel like I’m just there to men. Just a Black chick and nothing special. I blend in with the wall paper and nothing more.
Probably one of the stupidest things I ever did, and I would love to do it again!
I’m looking through some old FB pictures that a friend of my posted online recently of us and a couple other friends hiking last year. I really miss hiking behind the woods of my school. The trail behind my school leads towards some gorges and the shore line of the Virginia side Potomac River.
Me in 2011 hiking on the trail.
The first time I hiked back there was 3 years ago during my Freshman year. There was a large group of us. Maybe 30+ people hiking. This trail is filled with jagged rocks, fallen trees, holes, large cliffs and gorges. Also a small stream flows through it that empties into the Potomac River. A couple of times some of us fell and tripped. It was dangerous because of the dark and also if you aren’t paying attention.
We hiked during the night and it nearly took us 4 hours to get to the Potomac shoreline. When we reached the shoreline we had took a break for an hour and we ate some snacks. We made our own fire and cooked some s’mores. A couple of us had wrote our names in the boulders and rocks. My feet and legs felt like they were going to fall off after we came back on campus. I really want to do this all again. Next time I will prepare and bring more food, a first aid kit and extra water.
I can’t sleep and I don’t to sleep. I fear if I sleep now, I might not wake up for my presentation. LOL
I’m really scared now. I had to stay up a couple extra hours because my laptop was acting like a childish A-hole. I literally lost an entire slideshow for my Senior Sem. presentation that is suppose to be at 9:30 am today. On top of that, I’m getting strep throat! Ugh! I really don’t want to go to sleep out of the fear that I might not wake up in time for my class. So I am going to take like an hour nap and wake up so that I can practice my presentation. I’m actually going to have to drink some coffee today. I can’t wait this is all over. I will be doing my praise jesus baptist dance after all of this crap. FML!!!!
I really hate icebreakers in class.
My plans for 2012
I’m graduating this Summer and I’m going for my Masters degree in Communications. It’s a better investment for me and I will acquire more skills for future employers. I’ve already scouted some schools that I really liked most of them are in California and New York City. But I would rather go to school in California. I feel like it will be a nice escape from the east coast and it would be nice to be in an area where I can start fresh. I don’t have any family in California. My entire family is in the South and and the East Coast. This will give me a chance to branch out on my own and find my calling. I’m really excited about this all. This is going to be a busy year but a great one.
